And I know it won’t last.. We’ll be right where we were before.. :’(

I’m floating on a seperate cloud.

You’re right, lol. I don’t know what to call it either. Initiate a shrug here, because I seriously don’t know. I’m not about to go down that road again. I feel like kinda shoving my feelings down a hole. O.o

It kinda feels like I did that, but I’m kinda not sad. I mean, I miss it and sometimes when he puts his arm around me I still get a bit weak in the knees, but.. Hey, what can you do?

I feel somewhat blank, not empty, but just.. There. It’s my life. I actually see it now. I don’t like it.

I realized this week that I graduate in TWO YEARS. Now that may not seem like a long time, but it just feels so close but so far at the same time. I’m counting down the days that we finish this semester, but at the same time I’m keeping myself in check. I can’t believe I graduate in two years. I mean, it’s a long way, sure. But I’m about 1/4 done with my sophomore year.

To be honest, it’s a bit scary. I don’t know. It’s odd.

I really wonder what’s going to happen when the seniors leave. I’m not too worried about the section, but… I’m gonna be really bored when they graduate. They were the light in my day. I realized that today when just observing some of them. Hashan, Manny, Terence, Christian, Carla… I watched all of them today. I dunno…

Hashan… Goodness man. He always makes my day. He’s always there, he’s always so helpful. He’s amazing. His presence alone is just like… Wow. lol. He’s freaking magical. He says something, and it usually happens. He’s also still somewhat in touch with his childhood. Somewhat. :P But for the most part, yeah, he is. :)

Manny is hilarious. I forgot. He’s just so funny sometimes unintentionally. He could be totally serious and it’s still funny. At the same time, he is just so odd. I’ve been bitten twice. Once for him being hungry, another for either trying to take my bracelet back, or for messing with him while he was sleepy (payback for taking my hat).

Terence, man… Who’s gonna be the weird calm one when he goes? The silent stressed out person, but can calm anybody down. He’s one of the only people I wouldn’t get mad at if he shushed me. Because he never really messed with me like that. There’s just something about him that makes you calm down and listen. Odd.

Christian is such a weird person. I can’t be around him and Manny at the same time for too long. It’s just crazy lol. But I love hanging out with him, especially going to the production practice.

Carla.. You are one of my few inspirations. You’re amazing. It seems like you have a million things in the world to do, but you keep it in a bubble until it’s time for that. That’s so crazy. I can’t even imagine that. I love it though. I didn’t realize how much you did until today.

You five are my inspirations. I really look up to you guys. I’ll miss you. </3

-Silent Tributes

I always fall for some sort of trap.

I get my stuff stolen and it always looks bad trying to get it back.

Maybe I shouldn’t even bring anything like that anymore..